Although those words filled my heart that day they became more powerful last Thursday. After returning to the office after being out ill the day before I was slammed with tons of work, helping to orient a new employee, stress of school, stress of being at a weight loss plateau, etc. It was all so heavy on me that day, everything. If you follow me on instagram (@assignmentamanda) you saw this pic.
After the end of a long day I couldn't take it anymore. On the way home I cried because of stress at work, I cried because of stress with school, I cried because of how much time I have had to sacrifice because I didn't finish college right after high school, I cried because I let my weight get so out of control, I cried because I have not made any weight loss progress in 2 months, I cried because I hurt so deeply inside from the transgressions I have made against myself.
After the tears finally stopped the words from that homily began to ring true in my heart. Through all those times I have forgiven others for their transgressions against me I have never forgiven myself. In order to move forward on my journey I need to forgive myself for things that I have done to me and when I am feeling that the hurt again I need to forgive myself again. I will keep doing this until I don't feel that hurt anymore.
With this said I encourage you to reflect on what you haven't forgiven yourself for and start the process of forgiveness. When it resurfaces later in life (and it will) I encourage you to forgive yourself again. Forgiveness is a very powerful thing and it is not a one time/one step process..
Until next time,